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Got It Good.

There's much more in this "video" than it might seem. My life, my joy, my city, my friends, my frustrations, my family, my life till 2009 and my life past 2009, my favourite pictures, my memories... my joy, my pain, my fears, my love.
Now tell me: is it really selfish to wish to die before people I really love? Is it cowardly to escape the pain you're probably not capable of dealing with?
This is how I feel today. That is all.






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airporter
Jan. 17th, 2009 05:29 am (UTC)
That was beautiful - the music and the arrangement of the shots were very evocative.

Ultimately, only you know if that desire is selfish, kind man. Dying first, others help you and experience that pain: last, and you perform that service of love for others. It's rarely a choice though. It just happens. *hugs*

paterson_si
Jan. 18th, 2009 02:45 pm (UTC)
I was listening to this song for a few days and images kept on flashing in my head, so I had to do it, I guess.

And when it was finished that desire, wish, thoughts about going first came to mind and dragged me a bit down, I must say. I know it just happens, but it still hurts when I think about it.

*hugs*
london1967
Jan. 17th, 2009 08:49 am (UTC)
Wonderful!
You are a true artist.
paterson_si
Jan. 18th, 2009 02:45 pm (UTC)
Thanks, Effe! I appreciate it!
isledemoi
Jan. 17th, 2009 10:10 am (UTC)
What a nice tribute to the people in your life. Strange that you should be thinking like this. Only last night I was thinking the same thing - that I don't want my friends & family to die before me. As i have commented before - you are a rich man to have such people in your life.
paterson_si
Jan. 18th, 2009 02:47 pm (UTC)
Thanks! Yes, that's a trbute to people in my life and it was the way I feel for those people that got me thinking about death and all inevitable. I still haven't worked it all out.

And, yes, I am a rich man.
tilia_tomentosa
Jan. 17th, 2009 11:50 am (UTC)
Wow... beautiful! :) I feel tempted to just keep watching the video again and again.

I love to see photos of you and Igor together, the sentimental idiot hopeless romantic that I am.

And OMG, even bluebubbleblue's ginkgo leaves! :)

It is amazing how much you and yours have become part of my life for the few months in which I've known you. I recognize some of the people in your video and even remember their names. (Hey, bluebubbleblue, I'm giving you the perfect opportunity to tease me about that imaginary lover thing! :P)
Just don't die soon because I want to grow old together with you.

bluebubbleblue
Jan. 17th, 2009 01:41 pm (UTC)
Don't worry, Dari! : P

You have a lot of competitors. : P LOL!!!
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bluebubbleblue
Jan. 17th, 2009 01:39 pm (UTC)
I hope the moment I gave you would be happiness, Tomaz! : )

Man I wanna visit you and Igor so much! : )

((BIG BIG HUGS))

Sean
paterson_si
Jan. 18th, 2009 02:49 pm (UTC)
Does she? :) And, yes, the moment your offered was happiness.

HUGS
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estudioso
Jan. 17th, 2009 03:47 pm (UTC)
Your video made me feel happy in such a hard day at work, Tomaz.
paterson_si
Jan. 18th, 2009 02:49 pm (UTC)
And then it made me happy in return. Again!:)

HUGS, Temo!
jeremymlad
Jan. 17th, 2009 05:55 pm (UTC)
That was beautiful from start to end! Every single picture made me either happy or calm or both - it was just so very nice. Thumbs up, friend.
paterson_si
Jan. 18th, 2009 02:50 pm (UTC)
Thanks, Jeremy! I am happy I managed to send some of my feelings and emotions out.

HUGS
djmadadam
Jan. 17th, 2009 06:26 pm (UTC)
Thanks for the heavy heart and watery eyes.

Death is part of life. But, don't you dare die before your time. I'm glad you're in my life. You're a thoughtful and talented person.

I'm afraid sometimes I could grow old lonely and bitter. Your video reminds me that I have some work to do.
djmadadam
Jan. 17th, 2009 06:26 pm (UTC)
Also, who is the handsome man in the yellow shirt at 4:27? :D
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dendren
Jan. 17th, 2009 07:00 pm (UTC)
as someone who has lost *far* too many people I loved I think I spend an inordinant amount of time worrying that I will lose more. I don't think wishing to die before those you love is selfish at all... unrealistic, unfortunately, but not selfish at all.
dendren
Jan. 17th, 2009 07:08 pm (UTC)
also, what song is this... I have a few friends I'd like to send it to.

edit: oops... I see it now. Jem... very cool!

Edited at 2009-01-17 07:10 pm (UTC)
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bygbrat
Jan. 17th, 2009 07:24 pm (UTC)
beautiful! :D
paterson_si
Jan. 18th, 2009 02:53 pm (UTC)
Thanks, B! :)
zedsled
Jan. 17th, 2009 07:25 pm (UTC)
That was simply beautiful, Tomaz. It gave me the "warm fuzzies" inside. I really hope that I get the opportunity to meet you in person one day.
paterson_si
Jan. 18th, 2009 02:53 pm (UTC)
We should start making it happen, right? :)

Thanks!!!
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paterson_si
Jan. 18th, 2009 02:53 pm (UTC)
I am glad you saw and liked it. Means a lot to me.

HUGS
(Anonymous)
Jan. 17th, 2009 08:17 pm (UTC)
nice compilation
Nice photo compilation and happy being part of your life.
Marinus
paterson_si
Jan. 18th, 2009 02:54 pm (UTC)
Re: nice compilation
Hey, Rinie! No doubt you and LeRoy are part of it. A nice part!!!

HUGS
mitjablazic
Jan. 17th, 2009 08:39 pm (UTC)
You made me cry ... so keep living moments before they pass away ...

... I'm happy we got closer in the last year ...

Hugs!
tilia_tomentosa
Jan. 17th, 2009 09:01 pm (UTC)
Hey hey hey, why do such good things always make you cry?

I guess we all will have to die at the same time with Tomaz. LOL
*hugs*
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manley1
Jan. 17th, 2009 10:58 pm (UTC)
Just.. wow. Impressive.
paterson_si
Jan. 18th, 2009 02:55 pm (UTC)
Thanks, M! Every one of those people is so special to me.
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